[Verse 1]
The picture changing on me everyday,
In the mirror see exactly who my momma raised,
I'm trying not to make it sound like all I do is complain,
I'm through with the same,
And through with the game,
That's why I had to make a name change,
Gotta introduce myself,
Codiac with 2 Cs,
Thought you knew my health,
Matter fact,
I know you prolly don't care,
Got a whole different flow here,
Let me boast here,
Had some rough years,
Thank God I lived to tell about it,
And I even religious but let me tell you bout it,
Became a father the day I fucking turned 20,
And to this day I'm still learning,
Because my own deserted me,
Got niggas committing burglar,
For my trust,
Like they don't know that only hurts them G,
Whiz,
I'm in deep shit,
Writing this 2 days before I'm homeless,
Some deep shit.

[Refrain]
Do I deserve it,
Do I deserve it,
Do I deserve this,
I'm tired of fucking hurting,
I know that I don't deserve it.

[Bridge]
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross round my neck,
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross in my skin.

[Verse 2]
Is this the life that's meant for me,
I'm steady failing at it, someone take the test for me,
I miss the days when I felt like I was the best coming,
Out of my city but now my life ain't so pretty, man what's next for me,
I asked God but he ain't answering,
Need stability but ain't nobody anchoring,
Remember when I made So Lost,
Well this is how I feel now,
Don't ask me what's my deal now,
Yeah, they tell me keep on pushing forward,
But they don't know how I feel when my son is down in Florida,
Without me,
Don't doubt me,
I'm really fucking trying,
I come off as if I'm lying,
Fighting demons in my mind,
But they been won,
Still at war for my happiness,
Surprised I'm even still passionate,
If life's a test then I damn well ain't passing it,
Mafucking pacifist, so life just cracks my shit.

[Refrain](x2)
Do I deserve it,
Do I deserve it,
Do I deserve this,
I'm tired of fucking hurting,
I know that I don't deserve it.

[Bridge](x2)
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross round my neck,
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross in my skin.

[Verse 3]
Cross in my skin,
Heart on my sleeve,
Looking at my left hand, I see the only star I need,
So imma wish the symbol on the right is really me,
A fucking Superman but only in my dreams it seems,
Man, something's really gotta give,
I know I got a gift,
I'm going through a lot of shit,
Hoping when it's all said and done that they acknowledge it,
This angel on my shoulder better be real good at blocking shit,
Proving that my tats got meaning to em,
But that's another story,
I'm just tryna sell mine,
This ain't pretend life when I wanna end mine,
Bad mindset, I know, I just ain't living right,
Sick in the head, I'm fucking going insane,
Got a lot of fucking problems that just flow in my brain,
Everybody saying take some time to just pray,
But man I ain't even religious so for me it's too late.

[Bridge](x2)
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross round my neck,
Nigga ain't religious, got a cross in my skin.

[Refrain]
Do I deserve it,
Do I deserve it,
Do I deserve this,
I'm tired of fucking hurting,
I know that I don't deserve it.